WHAT THE F**K IS WRONG WITH ME LATELY.
WHY AM I SO INCAPABLE OF GETTING A SENTENCE OUT OF MY MOUTH.
WHY IS MY BRAIN NOT COOPERATING WITH ME.
WHY IS IT THAT I CANT JUST FACE MY FEARS?!
life is such a b*tch.
Untitled
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Wednesday, March 9, 2011
}
When I wake up, I fix a smile on my face.
The smile become faker and faker as the hours go by.
It seems as though people can see right through me.
So many problems, so many frustrations.
Is there anyone out there that can hear me?
Is there anyone that can make my simple wishes come true?
I feel so trapped, so alone.
Dear God, please save me.
Pick up the pieces that are left of me.
Bring peace to my heart.
I'm sick of pretending to be okay.
The smile become faker and faker as the hours go by.
It seems as though people can see right through me.
So many problems, so many frustrations.
Is there anyone out there that can hear me?
Is there anyone that can make my simple wishes come true?
I feel so trapped, so alone.
Dear God, please save me.
Pick up the pieces that are left of me.
Bring peace to my heart.
I'm sick of pretending to be okay.
boy meets girl
{
Friday, February 11, 2011
}
boy meets girl through another boy that liked girl
boy avoided girl because he sucked at casual conversation
boy added girl on aim and started chatting with girl
boy and girl casually chatted online
boy made girl laugh a lot
boy and girl chatted online almost every day but never really saw each other even though they went to same school
boy and girl started to hang out in real life
boy and girl became really good friends
boy had a crush on another girl for a little bit
boy and other girl didn't work out but were still friends
boy always brought oranges for girl from the dining hall
boy and girl started talking on the phone
boy and girl talked on the phone every day and became best friends
boy got drunk one night and told girl he liked her
boy waited a week for girl to decide if she should go out with him
boy dated girl
boy and girl fell in love.
if only all "boy meets girl" stories had a fairytale ending......
boy avoided girl because he sucked at casual conversation
boy added girl on aim and started chatting with girl
boy and girl casually chatted online
boy made girl laugh a lot
boy and girl chatted online almost every day but never really saw each other even though they went to same school
boy and girl started to hang out in real life
boy and girl became really good friends
boy had a crush on another girl for a little bit
boy and other girl didn't work out but were still friends
boy always brought oranges for girl from the dining hall
boy and girl started talking on the phone
boy and girl talked on the phone every day and became best friends
boy got drunk one night and told girl he liked her
boy waited a week for girl to decide if she should go out with him
boy dated girl
boy and girl fell in love.
if only all "boy meets girl" stories had a fairytale ending......
Adieu 2010, Bonjour 2011
{
Friday, December 31, 2010
}
Looking back, I remember celebrating 2010 in a suite in Lousville, excited about what the world would offer me.
the result? an EPIC year.
2010 in Bullet-points
January
* short trip to Cali --- got into LLU Dental School
* started my final semester as a undergrad at UGA --- at least so I thought for the time being
February
* First Valentines truly happy <3
* more decisions about where to go for dental school
* didnt realize I was 6 credit hours short of graduating --- freak out session ensued.
March
* finally made my decisions about where I wanted to be the next 4 years: TUFTS
* got all my credits in order. I WOULD GRADUATE ON TIME THANK YOU JESUS!
April
* decisions about summer plans --- KOREA?
* Matthew Nam RIP ---- probably the most heartbreaking thing that has happened to me this year
May
* Graduated with a BS in Microbiology --- rang the bell and skipped under the arch <3
* Moved out of my apt ---- realized a chapter in my life was finished. became depressed
June
* First time in the motherland --- fell in love with the country
* first world cup fanpark experience --- unforgettable
* two weeks of happiness hanging out with my orientation family
July
* euphoria kept rising. intoxication with my motherland made me the happiest girl ever.
* slinged, rolled & played in special mud. found out that the year before a pinkeye epidemic broke out because of the mud.... whooops. thankfully no pinkeye for me.
* learned the art of teaching English in Korea --- result: utter exhaustion
August
* said my goodbyes to the motherland --- cried and cried
* home for a couple days catching up with friends as I watched them start undergrad/grad school without me. realized again a chapter of my life was over.
* landed in Boston. fell in love with the city all over again
September
* dental school orientation --- met so many people & was blissfully unaware at how difficult life would become
* reality slapped me in the face after the honeymoon week (orientation) was over
* hello gross anatomy: my hardest, most hated, & favorite class. yes i have a dysfunctional relationship with this class
October
* relationships put to the test --- happy ending though <3
* more misery with dental school
November
* Gross anatomy OVER. huge celebration ensued
* birthday --- big fat 23. huge depression ensued
* special visitor --- happy happy me.
* NYC trip --- I love that I live relatively close to this city & escape whenever I need a getaway
December
* finals --- first trip to study at the 24 hr MIT reading room. pretty sure there will be more to come
* home for the holidays --- happiness overload.
There you have it. I am so grateful for how amazing this year has been. I thank God that He has been so good to me even though I did not deserve it.
I started 2010 with my church family and now ending it on a quiet note chilling with my fam.
I cant wait to see what this new year will bring. Dear 2011, blow 2010 out of the water. Thanks. <3
the result? an EPIC year.
2010 in Bullet-points
January
* short trip to Cali --- got into LLU Dental School
* started my final semester as a undergrad at UGA --- at least so I thought for the time being
February
* First Valentines truly happy <3
* more decisions about where to go for dental school
* didnt realize I was 6 credit hours short of graduating --- freak out session ensued.
March
* finally made my decisions about where I wanted to be the next 4 years: TUFTS
* got all my credits in order. I WOULD GRADUATE ON TIME THANK YOU JESUS!
April
* decisions about summer plans --- KOREA?
* Matthew Nam RIP ---- probably the most heartbreaking thing that has happened to me this year
May
* Graduated with a BS in Microbiology --- rang the bell and skipped under the arch <3
* Moved out of my apt ---- realized a chapter in my life was finished. became depressed
June
* First time in the motherland --- fell in love with the country
* first world cup fanpark experience --- unforgettable
* two weeks of happiness hanging out with my orientation family
July
* euphoria kept rising. intoxication with my motherland made me the happiest girl ever.
* slinged, rolled & played in special mud. found out that the year before a pinkeye epidemic broke out because of the mud.... whooops. thankfully no pinkeye for me.
* learned the art of teaching English in Korea --- result: utter exhaustion
August
* said my goodbyes to the motherland --- cried and cried
* home for a couple days catching up with friends as I watched them start undergrad/grad school without me. realized again a chapter of my life was over.
* landed in Boston. fell in love with the city all over again
September
* dental school orientation --- met so many people & was blissfully unaware at how difficult life would become
* reality slapped me in the face after the honeymoon week (orientation) was over
* hello gross anatomy: my hardest, most hated, & favorite class. yes i have a dysfunctional relationship with this class
October
* relationships put to the test --- happy ending though <3
* more misery with dental school
November
* Gross anatomy OVER. huge celebration ensued
* birthday --- big fat 23. huge depression ensued
* special visitor --- happy happy me.
* NYC trip --- I love that I live relatively close to this city & escape whenever I need a getaway
December
* finals --- first trip to study at the 24 hr MIT reading room. pretty sure there will be more to come
* home for the holidays --- happiness overload.
There you have it. I am so grateful for how amazing this year has been. I thank God that He has been so good to me even though I did not deserve it.
I started 2010 with my church family and now ending it on a quiet note chilling with my fam.
I cant wait to see what this new year will bring. Dear 2011, blow 2010 out of the water. Thanks. <3
byebye Seoul
{
Sunday, August 29, 2010
}
Now that I am back home its so weird to think that I was in Korea couple days ago. If feels as though I had never left. It's like I picked up right where I left GA. Korea seems like a dream. an AMAZING and mesmerizing dream.
I remember when I was saying my goodbyes, it was getting more and more depressing every day. Finally, when I said bye to my grandma I broke down and started crying after I saw her off. I'm so bad with goodbyes. I hate saying them so much. I always try to leave with a smile and laughter and playing off the bye. I just really hate saying bye.
Saying bye in Korea was the WORST. It's depressing to think that I might not ever see these people again. How do you say bye to people that you don't know when you'll see, IF you'll ever see them? People that you hung out with EVERYDAY and every week for 2.5 months. Isnt it sad? Maybe thats just me.
Well, its official that this was my best summer EVER. I learned so much during this summer, met SO many great people (some who I consider my life-long friends), and played hard. :)
Thanks Seoul for an amazing, unforgettable summer. I will never forget you.
Next on my agenda, BOSTON. I don't think it has hit me what I am about to embark.... I'm getting a little scared.
I remember when I was saying my goodbyes, it was getting more and more depressing every day. Finally, when I said bye to my grandma I broke down and started crying after I saw her off. I'm so bad with goodbyes. I hate saying them so much. I always try to leave with a smile and laughter and playing off the bye. I just really hate saying bye.
Saying bye in Korea was the WORST. It's depressing to think that I might not ever see these people again. How do you say bye to people that you don't know when you'll see, IF you'll ever see them? People that you hung out with EVERYDAY and every week for 2.5 months. Isnt it sad? Maybe thats just me.
Well, its official that this was my best summer EVER. I learned so much during this summer, met SO many great people (some who I consider my life-long friends), and played hard. :)
Thanks Seoul for an amazing, unforgettable summer. I will never forget you.
Next on my agenda, BOSTON. I don't think it has hit me what I am about to embark.... I'm getting a little scared.
10 Days Left
{
Sunday, August 15, 2010
}
Seriously, WHERE DID MY TIME GO?
It really feels as though yesterday I got on the flight to come to Korea and now I have 10 days left. I do NOT like this.
My planner is packed every day of tons of stuff to do before I get back home. I feel like I can't breathe. Just thinking about all the stuff I have to do before I go back home is overwhelming, but don't you worry! I am gonna see/do everything I possibly can before I have to leave. I am on a mission! =]
Korea is truly escape from reality. Going back home means I have to prep for school and omg I am dreading like anything. Just the thought of opening up a textbook and having to study is making my blood curl. *shudder*
I got an e-mail about my bill from Tufts this weekend. I have avoided looking at it. Everytime I look at my bill I want to hurl. I hate grad school. I hate money. I hate how much I have to shell out/be in debt for my four years. It will take me 15+ years to pay off this debt.
Is it bad that I'm dreading going back home and picking up where I left off? Please, can I not leave?
PS. Excuse the emo post. Its a Monday.
It really feels as though yesterday I got on the flight to come to Korea and now I have 10 days left. I do NOT like this.
My planner is packed every day of tons of stuff to do before I get back home. I feel like I can't breathe. Just thinking about all the stuff I have to do before I go back home is overwhelming, but don't you worry! I am gonna see/do everything I possibly can before I have to leave. I am on a mission! =]
Korea is truly escape from reality. Going back home means I have to prep for school and omg I am dreading like anything. Just the thought of opening up a textbook and having to study is making my blood curl. *shudder*
I got an e-mail about my bill from Tufts this weekend. I have avoided looking at it. Everytime I look at my bill I want to hurl. I hate grad school. I hate money. I hate how much I have to shell out/be in debt for my four years. It will take me 15+ years to pay off this debt.
Is it bad that I'm dreading going back home and picking up where I left off? Please, can I not leave?
PS. Excuse the emo post. Its a Monday.
Why I like 홍대
{
Sunday, August 8, 2010
}
These are some pictures on why I love this place so much. I can't believe I never made it out to Hongdae before til a week ago. Ever since last Saturday, I've made it out there 4 times. I love that its 20 - 30 minutes by subway. Gosh I love where I live. These pictures are in no particular order. Please excuse my amateur photography. Hopefully I'll get better! There will be more picture series to come. My friend took me to all the places that aren't so heavily populated and the area where most locals like going. I definitely went a little giddy while I was there. Thank you for being so good to me. <3
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Contemporary. Art. Loop: i fell in love with this place SO MUCH |
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| koreans and their obsession with old school bikes. i TOTALLY approve. |
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| favorite picture: <3 murals |
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